Suffocation

My heart is beating awfully fast.
Uncomfortable.
Don't know what to think of.
Tell me more...
I need to know the reasons why.

I am short of breath.
My chest, a fast deflating balloon.
Confused.
I am trying to assess what happened the past few days.
Where did I go wrong?
What do I lack?

I'll try to make sense out of this.
I'm close to crying.
You'd laugh at me when I do.
I want to lie down.
Sleep for a while.
Forget.
Dream.

Naive.
Yes I might be.
But a chance I want you to give me.
Not to prove myself.
But to be myself.